Alone

For the first time in a long time
I feel naked and alone.
Like if I reached out for any reason
no one would be there.

Which is ridiculous
because I did that exact thing yesterday.
And someone came to my rescue.

But in my mind
In this room
When I wake up
When I get off work
When my mind stops running for just a second,
I realize
I'm alone.

I don't feel like a person with a soul and a future.
I feel like flesh and bones in a dimly lit basement
just wishing there was someone around.

I wish I knew what changed.